Everyday Pain

Everyday I feel like I can’t make it thought the day. Not because I hate my life but because I am tired of dealing with the pain that I go through each and every day…but I still do. I still make it through. the day, and everyday after that because I have to. I can’t give up the fight that I am. Yes I deal with mental illness but I have to keep going. Mental health is not a joke and it is not an excuse. Mental health is real and many people go through their own eternal battles. It took me years to even acknowledge what I deal with but I have become stronger. Each day is a struggle and each day is a pain but I take each day full steam ahead because I have to. My path is becoming clear and talking about my struggles not only hello me, but I hope it will help others.

 

 

QWillis

Be Encouraged

At this time with what we are saying and what we are hearing it is easy for anxiety and depression to grab a hold of you. As someone who deals with mental illness you have to be strong and be encouraged. We all will get through this. This is the time where we must lean on our family and our friends. Check on them, text them, call them, do whatever needs to be done to let people know that you are there for them. The only way that we will get though this is together. Don’t let the claws of despair anchor you down so that you can’t get up. Stress is a killer so don’t be stressed out with what life throws at you. We all are dealing with something. We all have our own individual challenges the we deal with along what is going on in the world. You are not alone. I am here to tell you that it will be ok. Just like you I am dealing with my own challenges and struggles. I don’t write about what people want to hear, I also write about a lot of the things that I deal with mentally and physically myself. So as I write this, know that it will be ok. Know that you will be ok. Know that this might be hard times, this to shall pass.

 

QWillia

Take care of yourself

During this time of crisis we have to make sure that we are still taking care of ourselves while taking care of others. It is easy to fall into depression when you see what’s going on. It is easy to start getting overwhelmed and worried when you see all over the world what is happening to our fellow people. We are all the same. Prayer and focusing on the positive will get you through it. Positive thinking is what is needed. Do something that keeps you going. Do something that encourage you and make you happy. When you feel that cloud or that storm start to come in, take a step back and focus on why you are still here and your happiness. We all have to take care of ourselves. Dealing with mental illness is hard everyday but with all that is going on in the world today it can way a ton on your life and your soul. Focus on you, deal with you, be happy with you and everything else will fall into place. The only reason I can say this is because this is also my struggle as well. I can only speak on what I deal with now and every day but I hope my word will be an encouragement to others.

 

QWillis

No holding back

Write what you want. Write what you feel. Say what inspires you and others. Stop holding back. Post your inspirations for the world to see. Be who you are to be. These are the things that I constantly tell myself, and these are the things I will start blogging about. I don’t want to be scared and cautious about my words and how people see them. I want to be me and authentic. I have been holding back for months and years about the path that I should take with my blog and I have came to the conclusion that I should take any and all paths available to me that God has blessed me with. I will speak my poetry, I will show my pictures, I will share my quotes, I will express myself and I will speak and share about mental illness and mental health. We ask ourselves what is are calling and what do we want to be known as. I just want to be me. The good and the bad is what made me who I am and that is what I will continue to share and write about. I hope whoever reads this will enjoy this ride I am about to take myself on.

 

 

QWillis

Keep on Writing

November 22 2018 I lost my mom. For a whole year I have been leaving in pain and lost because I have been trying to understand so much because of this lost. When you lose a parent, it hurts. My mom was my best friend and when God called her home a piece of me left. I have been working so hard to continue writing. I put my camera down and just look at it because it is so hard to take pictures. Poetry don’t flow out of me the same way it did. Did I lose my gifts? Did I lose the very things that kelp me going and happy? Yesterday I visited my mom at the cemetery and talked to her mentally. I let go of what I loved because if the pain I was in but I know my mom would not want me to stop doing the things I love. She was my biggest supporter. She still is my biggest supporter so I can’t let her or myself down. I stopped writing because the pain of losing my mom overcame me. I think in my dreams and yesterday she has been trying to tell me to write. No matter what…write. Write about anything and everything. Write about life and hope and dream. Write about any and everything. So I will do what my mom want me to do. I will write. Whatever comes to mind, I will write. I will blog more and write more and learn more. I will let my words, my poems, my quotes, and my pictures speak. I will write.

 

 

QWillis

New Year, New

As I step foot into the new year I have to look in the mirror and see the person that has been through so much last year. It was a hard year for me, but because of God, I made it through. As I sit here writing on my blog, I continue to ask myself the direction that I want it to take. The audience that I want to reach and the people that I want to touch. The conclusion that I came up is I want to reach anybody and everybody that will listen. I want every picture I post to be inspiring. Every word I type to be touching. I want This blog to have a meaning. Just like all the words I read from other blogs and the inspiration  that I read, I want this to hold those inspiring moments as well. From the Quote of the Day, to a simple picture post. From the thoughts flowing through my mind just as some paragraphs to a simple poem that came across my mind. This blog will be the outlet for all them. I hope you enjoy this journey.

 

QWillis